People get what they deserve.

I've always believed this to be true. Some call it karma. Others destiny or fate. But whatever you call it, the fact remains that we all get what we deserve in this life.

We sometimes whine that life isn't fair. What does being fair mean anyways? Humans, by nature, are always dissatisfied. We can never get enough of anything. We receive a lot of blessings everyday but we never realize it. We whine and whine and whine about the unfairness of life -- why we don't have this, why we can't have that. Jeez.




I do it too. Like, all the time. Hehe. I am human, after all.

Gee whiz.

I missed my blog. Hehe. I have been so busy with work that I wasn't able to visit it for like, two weeks. Crap.

Anyhoo---I have a strange feeling about something (or should I say someone?). I dunno. No one really told me about anything (do I make sense?) But I usually trust my instincts... and my instincts are on red alert right now. I've done a couple of fishing expeditions and I think I may be on to something. It feels like someone is bashing me and spreading uber-bad stuff about me. My initial reaction is to retaliate... y'know, use all my resources and connections to bring him down. He has more to lose than I. My life is an open book and I have nothing to hide... unlike... erm, well... y'know. :::wink:::

But then again, I figured... in the end, the truth will prevail. So why bother?

I checked out the blogs of other people I know... I find it sort of weird that they write down every minute detail of what happened to them in a day. Like from the moment they wake up, what they ate for breakfast, lunch and dinner, till the time they go to bed. They can even write down conversations they had. I'm surprised they don't recount their trips to the bathroom and such. W-E-I-R-D. Haha.

Actually... I feel a bit weird doing this myself. It's not as if my friends would bother reading about what I think. It's not as if people would come check out my blog either. Hehe. But what the heck?!!?!? I'm doing this for myself and I don't give a rat's ass what others think.

I had a lot things on my mind before I sat down and decided to post in here... but now that I'm writing, it's as if all my brain cells died. ???!!!

I am such a wuss.

Oh well. Whatever.

it's been a while since i last blogged.

well... not really... it's just been three days... but i feel like i've been gone for quite a while. hehe. maybe it has a lot to do with the fact that several things have happened since the last time i've been here. anyways...

i had a long chat with a good friend the other night. it seems that he's breaking up with his girlfriend for good. they've been together for two years and have been in and out of the relationship. his girlfriend is also my friend but my heart went out to him because i know him better and i've seen how good he's been to her. apparently, she doesn't appreciate how good he is and how lucky she is to have him. *shrug*...

i don't understand why some people take things like these forgranted. i mean, love (real love, that is) comes once in a lifetime. and for someone to take that forgranted?... she deserves a whack on the head, that's what!

i recently experienced something close to what my friend is experiencing at the moment. i have gotten over it but for a while there, i thought i will never be able to bring myself together.

why can't people be contented with what they have? why do they keep wanting more?

i was watching TV the other night and came across avril lavigne's latest video "My Happy Ending". i was taken aback. the lyrics best sums up what i feel. it tells the story of how my life has been for the past month or so. having said that, let me leave you with the lyrics to the song. here goes...

my happy ending

let's talk this over
it's not like we're dead
was it something i did?
was it something you said?

don't leave me hangin'
in a city so dead
held up so high
on such a breakable thread

you were all the things i thought i knew
and i thought we could be

you were everything, everything that i wanted
we were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it
all of our memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending

you've got your dumb friends
i know what they say
they tell you i'm difficult
but so are they

but they don't know me
do they even know you?
all the things you hide from me
all the shit that you do

you were all the things i thought i knew
and i thought we could be

you were everything, everything that i wanted
we were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it
all of our memories so close to me just fade away
all this time you were pretending
so much for my happy ending


so there.

till next.

yeah well... i wasn't able to get any work done since i've been blogging like crazy. hehe. i dunno... it's addicting. i never knew it would be as addicting as this. LOL.

that's me up there ↑ with my best friends anna and weng. just felt like posting it. hehe.

anyhoo---i'm going home in a while... so maybe i'll just blog again later.

oh yeah... forgot to mention... it's friday the 13th! yey! haha. you see, unlike most people, i consider friday the 13th lucky. so... yey!

oh well... gotta go.

till next.

LOL.

okay... was supposed to work... got tons of stuff to do but editing this blog is, like, so interesting. hehe. i have always been a frustrated web designer and have always dreamed of doing a site of my own. was an administrator of a certain website a couple of months back but due to unforeseeable circumstances, that had to end.

ho-hum.

anyways... i guess i have to get serious now and do the things i'm supposed to do. maybe i'll be back tomorrow. who knows? haha.

life sucks.

"life has a funny way of sneaking up on you when you think everything's okay and everything's going right..." alanis morrisette couldn't have said it better. just when you think that life's peachy and all... along comes something (a piece of news, a person, whatever...) to ruin your day.

oh crap!

i hate this day.