Can't wait for Friday (June 3)!

Bamboo's launching their album at the Megastrip. And Hale will be fronting!!! :) Hehe. Weird. Mas gusto yung front act. Haha.

Oh and... there's this San Miguel event that same night at Megamall Parking C. Bands like Sandwich, 6cyclemind, Pedicab, Rivermaya, Parokya ni Edgar, etc... will be there. Expect major traffic! Expect major jolog convergence! Expect major fun! Hehe.

Of course, I will be in the middle of it all.

Can't wait for Friday!

It's weird how reading something off the internet can totally piss you off.

I don't even know who this poster is.

Or if he/she is male or female.

Or if I know him/her personally.

Or if he/she comes in here to check my posts out.

I really shouldn't care what YOU think...

But... who the hell do YOU think YOU are?

Screw YOU!!!

YOU are such a coward!

Why can't YOU tell me that to my face?!?!

I swear to God, if I find out who YOU are... YOU are so dead!

Feeling quite bored again...

Take the 'What Kind of Girl Are You?' quiz at CookingToHookup.com

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Where are you when I need you?

:(

got this off Maui's blog and thought it'd be fun to add it here... :)

GASP!!!

I like! I like! I like!

Tee hee. :)

I wonder when it will be available here.

I wonder how much it will cost when it comes out.

I wonder if I'll ever be able to afford it.

I wonder if I'd want it when it's finally available. You see, I wanted the 6680 before but now that it's here, I kinda don't like it anymore. Hehe.

Oh well...

This is such an amazing phone. Can store up to 3,000 songs!

Ack!

::::hyperventilating::::

I am such a loser.

My life is so boring. :(

Boo hoo to me.

Time for some fun... :)

Here are five questions from Oliver. If you want to join the game, scroll down till the end of the Q&A for the Interview Game Rules:

01. Which among the artists that you are forced to work with do you dislike and why? If you can't name them, at least give clues to their identities.

Ang hirap naman! Haha. Actually, there are a lot quite a few. There are those I don't like because of their attitude and there are those that I don't like because I just don't believe they have the talent. (Oh dear, I can get into trouble for this. Hehe). And there's someone that I don't like because of both reasons mentioned above.

Clues, eh? Hmmm...

Artist #1 - we used to be really good friends but "fame" got into his head. It's not as if he's really famous but, y'know, he has a bunch of groupies that follow him around. He actually used to complain and whine about this group of girls who seem to appear everywhere we go. Kesyo makukulit daw and they always kept on invading his personal space. Last I heard, he's really good friends with them now -- as in they go out and stuff. Not that I really care but it's just so weird how he can change his mind in such a short span of time. To this day, I cannot understand what I did to him to make him treat me the way he did. I guess some people are really just a-holes. Oh and... he's always been quite egotistical... I guess I just blocked it when we were still friends. You see, he has this notion that he's really a great singer, when he's actually just mediocre. I used to tell him when he was off-key and he wouldn't accept it. I saw him recently in one TV show and he's still off-key. Hehe. You actually interviewed him! Haha. Tama na. I've said too much already. :)

Artist #2 - I used to really like her too but, same as with Artist #1, fame has gotten into her head. Notice that I didn't put quotation marks on the word fame coz this girl is quite famous. And she's really talented. I'd give her that. I just don't agree that being famous and talented gives you the right to become big-headed.

Artist #3 - he can't seem to accept that he's over-the-hill, what with the demands he makes. He still believes he's everyone's idol.

Artist #4 - I think she's somewhat of a hypocrite. She has this really saintly image but I hear she's not as holy as she deems herself to be.

Artist #5 - For the life of me, I cannot understand why we even bothered to make him an album. His TV show got taken off the air. He's just a fad. And I don't understand what he says.

Artists #6, 7, 8, 9 and 10 - I wrote about them before. I cringe everytime they sing. I'm not sure any amount of vocal training will do them any good. (I'm so mean!). But they're nice kids... so far... so I can't afford to dislike them as much. For some reason, I feel guilty bashing them. Hehe.

Errr... are talent managers included in this question? Hehe.

02. If you had telepathy for a day, which celebrities would you mind-read?

Can't think of anyone in particular but I guess all those celebrities who have been involved in some kind of scandal. I'd like to know if they're telling the truth or if they're trying to cover something up to save their careers.

03. If you managed a band in the '90s, which would it be and in what direction would you have pointed them to?

I've always been a big fan of the Eraserheads and I was one of the many who was disappointed when they had that falling out. I know zilch about managing a band but I guess I would've told them to continue writing commercial songs. I do believe in creative freedom and giving artists free rein in terms of writing their materials. But let's face it, at the end of the day what really matters is how many records you sell.

04. What chocolate-related pastry can your life be compared to?

Hmmm... I would've said cream puff but since it's not chocolate-related, I'd say chocolate eclair. Somewhat hard outside but really soft and gooeey inside.

05. Who were you in a past life and how does that relate to your love life now?

I think I may have been a really bad woman in my past life. Hehe. I probably played around and was reckless with other people's feelings. I was probably insensitive and uncaring. That's why I'm paying for it now. The Law of Karma is at work... what can I say?

Here are The Official Interview Game Rules:
01. If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying "interview me."
02. I will respond by asking you five questions - each person's will be different.
03. You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions.
04. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others in the same post.
05. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions. If you don't have a blog, you can post your answers to the five questions here.

Enjoy! :)

I'm proud of myself. Hehe.

My so-called website is now close to being complete. Haay. I never realized that making one would be so tedious. As if naman a lot of people will come check it out. Haha. And it's not as if the site I made is full of useful information. Come to think of it, it doesn't really contain much. Haha. Oh well... whatever. At least I was able to make one from scratch.

Shoutouts go out to the following people for helping me out:

Drewy >>> Thanks dude for the awesome look. And for teaching me how to use Photoshop. Ayuz ka!

Randy >>> Thanks for helping me out with the programming part of it. You're the best web developer ever! :) Hey peeps---if you need someone to design your website for you, talk to Randy. He's the greatest! Galing na, mabait pa! :) He actually developed this and this. You can contact him here: Layer1Studio.

You >>> For pushing driving me to spend countless hours learning about html and css, instead of pining and moping.

Ugh. Bummer.

I've a bad case of LSS (Last Song Syndrome). Can't seem to get "Inside Your Heaven" (Carrie Underwood's single) out of my head.

Blech.

Boo hoo...

Bo lost to Carrie =(

Crap! Crap! Crap!



What a sad, sad day. =(

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Bo is soooo cute! Wehehehe.

Errr...

Fooled around with my template again. Hehe.

La lang. Couldn't think of anything else to do e. Haha.

Anyways, the letters are bigger now... kewl eh?

Oh... by the way, I just edited the most recent posts to fit the "new" template. Felt tamad to revise those in my archives... so if ever you feel like checking that out, I think it'll look a little weird. Wehehe.

So there.

Oh crap, I'm hungry. Bleh.

Ei! Look who visited me today... =)


"Kulit" a.k.a. Aliya Parcs. Hehe

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Watched American Idol this afternoon.

Bo rocked!


Sigh... What a hottie!

I hope he wins. ::::fingers crossed::::

Paulo Coelho is a genius.

Came across this while surfing the net:


Closing Cycles
by Paulo Coelho

One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through. Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters - whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.

Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents' house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened. You can tell yourself you won't take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister, everyone will be finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.

None of us can be in the present and the past at the same time, not even when we try to understand the things that happen to us. What has passed will not return: we cannot forever be children, late adolescents, sons that feel guilt or rancor towards our parents, lovers who day and night relive an affair with someone who has gone away and has not the least intention of coming back. Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.

That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home. Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts - and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place. Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them. Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.

Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.

Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the "ideal moment." Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.

Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person - nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need. This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life. Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust. Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.

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The rain... it always starts when you go away.

from "Son of a Gun" - Nirvana

I have been doing a lot of thinking... You see, I'm contemplating on whether I should let go of my second phone. It's a Sun phone. Err... people in the Philippines would know what this means... 24/7 Call and Text Unlimited... (sorry... didn't mean to advertise. hehe). So anyways, I don't really see any use for it anymore. I rarely get calls there and most of the messages I receive are just forwarded messages. I'm kinda getting sick of it.

And I have no one to call or text anymore... so technically, it's just a waste of space (in my bag) and money (useless to load up since I don't get to maximize it).

But me being myself, I have a problem letting go. (Oh y'all already know that!). And I can't decide what to do.

So... I need your help.

***I have been trying to install an online poll but it just wouldn't work. Crap. Anyways, just post your answers through the comments link below. Help me decide, ayt?!***

I'm back...

Still ain't peachy but getting there...

Although I'm kinda feeling invisible lately... Ahh well...

For the past three days, I have been to... lemme see... five gigs. Kewl, eh? Hehe. It was fun seeing all those people I used to hang with. I guess this would be my life (again) from now on. Here are some pics from my "road trip":


with Papa Darwin at The Fort


Ney and Rose at The Fort


me (sabog) with Ney (praning) and Papa Darwin (singit!) Hehe...


with my long-lost friend Bolichie of Velcro


Sandwich at Robinsons Cavite (err... I forgot if it was in Imus or Dasma... hmmm...)


Sandwich autograph-signing


Weeee! Lotsa fans! Astig!




Diegz and Mike at Angono


Diegz fooling around


Trix with the Cheezkeyk boys

Forgot to take photos from the Cainta and Makati gigs. Sad. =( Sayang. Tutti was there pa naman. He rocks! Astig! Heard they (Protein Shake) are releasing an album soon. Note to self: Get a copy!

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Thanks to all who posted a message... to CL, me, anAngel and most especially to Infinity and Oliver. I thank you for your concern. Maybe I was wrong all along... people do care. It's just sad that the people you want the most concern from couldn't really care less.

Someone told me a few nights ago that I am the way I am because I think too much. And that I'm not nakakaawa at all.

Probably true.

I think I owe you an explanation...

I am not nagpapaawa, but sometimes I pity myself. When I say nobody cares, it's because nobody does.

I've always felt unwanted. When I was young, my mom, sisters and cousins used to tell me that I was exchanged at birth. When I was born, the nurse apparently mistook my umbilical cord for something else and declared to everybody that I was a boy. After being cleansed and all, the doctor came up to my mom and told her that I was, indeed, a girl and went on to explain about how the nurse thought my umbilical cord was a p***s.

Everytime they'd tell me that story, I ended up crying. I mean, why else would they tell me that if it weren't true? When I got a bit older, I got to thinking why they would even bother telling me the story even if it weren't true? Did they, perhaps, not want me?

I dealt with it the way I knew how... shrugged it off and pretended not to care. But I cared far too much and I was just too proud to admit it. In front of them, I stood strong... but alone, in my room every night, I cried myself to sleep. I guess that's how I created my wall and to this day I still have that wall. Once in a while, I lower it down for some people. But through the years I have learned that keeping it down only means more pain. Letting people in is synonymous to pain.

I was never the favored child. I am the youngest of three children. Our eldest is my half sister but my dad accepted her as his own. Eventually, she moved out and lived with my grandmother so it was just my ate and me.

Growing up as the youngest child in most families is probably the best thing in the world. But in mine, it wasn't. My ate had all the attention. She got all the best toys, the best clothes and the best school. Sure, I was spoiled rotten but not by my parents... it was my yaya who took care of me till I was around 15. If not for her, maybe no one would have minded me. I grew up craving for attention. Even when I got all the medals and the honors when I was in school, I never got the approval from my parents. Yeah they told me they were proud of me... but I know that if my sister got all those medals, there would have been a party.

For that reason, I strived hard to get into UP. I didn't want to settle for any other school than UP. That was the only time I got the nod from my mother. My dad, being his nice self and all, tried hard to make me feel like he was proud of me. But I knew in my heart that I could never be as special as my sister was to him. When I graduated cum laude, my friends were more proud of me than any of my family. They just didn't care. Like it was the easiest thing in the world and anybody could have gotten it. I even got the line, "You would've been magna or summa cum laude if you were more serious about school".

Right.

I wanted to throw the damn medal away.

I haven't been speaking to my mother since I was around 21 for reasons I cannot write about here. All I can say is that, to each other, we're invicible. We may live in the same house but it feels like we're not. My mom and dad aren't on speaking terms either. You can just imagine the three of us living under one roof. Life isn't at all peachy. Which is why I never like being at home. If I had my way, I'd be out of there right now. But I don't.

So you see, nobody cares. Sure I have my friends but they have their own lives to think about that they can't be bothered with me. They try to be there whenever the need arises, but most of the time I'm by my lonesome, struggling to get accepted by the people who matter. Still craving for that attention nobody I care for wants to give me.


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Sino tong nakatingin?
Anghel bang magliligtas sakin
Mga mata'y kanyang minulat sa pagdadalamhati

Hinahanap sa kung saan
Pakpak na hindi mahagilap
"ninanais ko lang naman na maging ganap"

Kailangan lang pagbigyan
Kulang lang sa pansin

Maghahanap ka pa ba
Ng ibang taga-lupa
"aking tinig ay iyong dinggin"

Kailangan lang pagbigyan
Kulang lang sa pansin

Mauubos din ang luha
Natutuyo at nawawala
Naglalaho rin pala

Kailangan lang pagbigyan
Kulang lang sa pansin

- "klsp" / Spongecola

As promised, here are new pics from...

...Ripe Tomatoes:


Me & Champ Tan of Hale (sorry if the pic is dark...)


Blue Ketchup


Hale


Kjwan


Milk N Money


Orange & Lemons


Pedicab


Sandwich


Spongecola


Sugarfree


...Sam's birthday:


with Weng


with the 'scoobie gang'


with Ysa


with the birthday boy


my two best friends (oh... and Sir Chris is in the background being his autistic self, with an iPod plugged in his ears)

Funny how being sick fries your brain...

I've been sick and my brain has either gone on hiatus or died and has left me for good.

Holy friggin' crap.

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Why is it that when you really really hate someone and would much rather not talk to that person, she comes sashaying in and insists on talking to you?

And why is it that the person you most want to talk to doesn't want anything to do with you?

Aaaaarrrrggghhhh!!! WTF?!?!?!!?

Is it human nature to be so bloody insensitive?

Crap. Crap. Crap.

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I have got a lot of new pics. Plus a couple of stories... but I ain't in the mood to post at all. Go figure.

Life sucks.

The world sucks.

Everybody sucks.

You suck.

I suck.

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You, doin' that thing you do
Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
Like you always do
And you, don't mean to be cruel
You never even knew about the heartache
I've been goin' through

Well, I try and try to forget you
But it's just so hard to do
Every time you do that thing you do

And I, know all the games you play
And I'm gonna find a way to let you know that
You'll be mine someday
Cause we, could be happy, can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me

'Cause I try and try to forget you
But it's just so hard to do
Every time you do that thing you do

I don't ask a lot but I know one thing's for sure
It's the love I haven't got
And I just can't take it anymore

Cause we, could be happy, can't you see
If you'd only let me be the one to hold you,
And keep you here with me
'Cause it hurts me so just to see you go
Around with someone new
And if I know you, you're doin' that thing
Every day, just doin' that thing
I can't take you doin' that thing you do

Everyone's a liar...

i'm here right now at discovery suites and there are a lot of people... i'm confused. haha.

anyways, i'll try to get back online in a bit. have a lot of stories to tell. if not, maybe i'll be back tomorrow.

ta ta!

hate myself today

aarrgghh...

YEY!

It's Friday the 13th!

Whoopppeee!!!

My Top 10 prettiest female celebrities... If I were a guy, I'd be drooling over these women:

10. Shiri Appleby. I think she's really cute.

09. Mena Suvari. Babe personified.

08. Jennifer Aniston. Brad is so stupid to let her go. Haha. As if!

07. Alicia Silverstone. Mejo tweetums but really cute.

06. Heather Graham. My friend Ricio will drop everything to meet her. Haha. Sorry Anna! You're one of my best friends and I love you but I'd have to condone him regarding that.

05. Cameron Diaz. Cute and goofy. Kewl chick!

04. Kate Hudson. My friend Kap doesn't agree with me that she's prettier than her mother. He likes Goldie Hawn better apparently. I think Kate is way prettier though.

03. Kirsten Dunst. She may be kinda dumb but she's pretty. Hehe. (sidenote: My friend Diego saw her on a celebrity episode of Jeopardy and she's like the dumbest of them all, he says. Oh well... you can't have everything, I guess)

02. Sarah Michelle Gellar. The only reason why I watched the Hollywood version of The Grudge even though it was a bad film. Hehe. I miss Buffy =(

01. DREW BARRYMORE. I've liked Drew since I was a kid. I loved her in Firestarter and ET. She's really funny. Her character in Mad Love is one I can so relate to! Yeah... go figure again! Hahahahaha.

I just realized... most of these women are blondes! Hmmm... interesting. Hehe.

THE MEN IN MY LIFE...

LOL! Hahahaha...

For lack of fun things to blog about (and because I saw Dennis hehehehe), just felt like posting my Top 10 celebrity crushes. Hahahaha. I feel like a schoolgirl. Wehehe. La lang. I'm bored e.

10. Barry Pepper. It was actually a toss up between him and James Franco (from Spiderman and James Dean The Movie) but in the end, I had to choose Barry (LOL! Parang totoo. Hehe). I can't quite remember the movies he starred in. I think he was in Saving Private Ryan, plus one other war flick. Oh well. Haha.

09. David Schwimmer. I like a guy who makes me laugh and I imagine David to be one such guy. His character as Ross in Friends is such a sweetheart. I can actually relate to his character there. Go figure. Hehe.

08. Ryan Philippe. I loved him in I Know What You Did Last Summer and in Cruel Intentions. Screw Reese Witherspoon for snagging him! Haha. As if. Anyways, Ryan has this "boy-next-door" look and yet he also has that "bad-ass" vibe going on. Haaaay. Hahahaha.

07. Billy Crudup. Waaaaaahhh! What a hottie!!! Hehehehe. I liked him in Almost Famous. He was kinda a jerk there but who cares? He's a hot jerk! LOL. And besides, that was only a character. Haha.

06. Ewan McGregor. :::sigh::: I first "fell in love" with him on Trainspotting. Loved the "addict look". Hehehe. And when he went on to play Obi Wan Kenobi, I just had to swoon. Oh... and that accent. I love his accent!

05. Colin Farrell. While most everyone I knew was going ga-ga over Tom Cruise in Minority Report, I couldn't care less as I was eyeing Colin Farrell. Hahahaha. He wasn't exactly that known yet then but I think he somewhat gained recognition from that film because soon after that, he made Phone Booth and The Recruit. And now everybody likes him. Bah!

04. James Marsters. Aaaaarrrrgggghhhh! Hahahaha. He became famous for his role as Spike in Buffy. Again, I can relate to his role there. Go figure again. If all vampires were as hot as James/Spike, I wouldn't mind getting bitten. Hehe.

03. Jason Lee. What can I say? This guy is H-O-T. And he's a really funny guy. I (think) I've seen all of his movies. From Chasing Amy to Mallrats to Clerks to It's A Guy Thing and everything else in between. :::sigh::: Haha.

02. Edward Norton. Not only is he really really really cute, but he's also a great actor. Perfect! Haha. I've seen all of his movies too. I am such a fan. If he were to come here to shoot a movie or something, I will surely die. Haha.

01. KURT COBAIN. He may be dead but he's still the best for me. Did I mention I cried when he died? Haha. Yeah well... Couldn't help it.