How is it that one person has so much power over another? Is it normal? Is it the way of the world? Or do only psychologically imbalanced people (like myself) let this happen? If so, is there a cure aside from therapy? How do you make it stop?

Looking back at my life, I can't quite recall any time I have been so "overpowered" by someone else. Sure I've had my share of tiwang moments. There have been quite a lot over the years. But never has there been anyone who has had this much power over me. It sucks. Big time.

I just want it to stop.

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Today is April Fools Day.

Being the fool that I am, it is my day.

Hooray to me!

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Before going to work this morning, I played with my dogs. I have three dogs now. Two mongrels and one min-pin.

One mongrel is named Popeye. I got him from a neighbor. He was already a big dog when he was given to us. He actually stowed away a few days after he was given to us. I figured he went back to his previous owner. Then I found him one day under a big tree next to our house all wet and scared. He never ran away again after that. He's a sweet dog and I love him.

The other mongrel is named Fluffy (after the Harry Potter character... remember Fluffy the three-headed dog?). No, my Fluffy doesn't have three heads. But he was given to me as birthday present by my friends a few years back when I was so into the Harry Potter fever. He's a kewl dog and I love him.

The min-pin is named Mac. He was given to me by my tita and ninang. My dad gave him the name Mac... short for makulit. When he was a pup, he used to sleep beside me because he'd cry all night in his cage. And my mom (being the evil person that she is) would shout at him and all. So I'd take him each night and let him sleep with me and he'd stop crying. Even though he's really super kulit, he's a great dog and I love him.

Looking at my dogs this morning, I envied them. They have a loving home, a loving owner (me!) and not a care in the world.

I wish I were a dog.

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I hate my life.

I hate myself.