Last night I saw my whole life flash before my eyes. It's probably an exaggeration because I managed to come out of the accident unharmed and without a scratch. Yet in those few seconds, I actually knew what people meant by near-death experience.

Metal crashing against metal is a sound I would never want to hear again for the rest of my life. I was two minutes away from home when it happened. The cab I was riding in was about to turn left towards the entrance of my village. There was an oncoming motorcycle, which my cab driver either didn't notice or chose to ignore. It was obvious that the biker was speeding as I sat there transfixed by the lone headlight. Then bam! The motorcycle hit the lower right door. I think I may have screamed at the driver, something like "look out!" before the actual collision… I dunno. Everything's kinda fuzzy now. We skidded to a stop and I felt like a ragdoll being thrown about. My head bumped into something – could be the window. I don't really know for sure.

When riding a cab, I normally sit behind the passenger seat. For some reason, last night I chose to sit behind the driver seat. Probably some Higher Power was looking out for me. If I had been at my usual place, I'd probably be in the hospital right now for God-knows-what. A broken leg
perhaps? Or an arm fracture? Maybe I'd have motorcycle tire marks on my face. I don’t know… I shudder to think what could have been.

Like with all accidents, several people were soon at the scene. I wonder where they all came from considering it was almost 3 in the morning. As this happened in front of my village, I saw our guard running towards the commotion. When he saw me, he helped me out and offered to call my dad. I told him no. I checked myself for injuries and seeing that there was none, I told him I can walk and I should go my way. Besides, I didn't want to have to worry my dad. Nothing could be worse for a parent than receiving a call in the middle of the night and hearing that their child was in an accident.

I don't know what happened to the biker. I was too much in shock to even hang around and see if he was okay. I actually failed to pay for my fare. I feel a bit guilty now. I wasn't hurt at all. Shaken up and traumatized but unhurt. The left side of my skull is throbbing right now, though, from hitting something. I'm trying to check if a lump is growing but I can't feel anything. Oh and my neck hurts too. Other than that, I'm unscathed. No bruises. No gash. Nothing. But I didn't even bother to check the biker. Nor bother asking the driver if he was alright. Nor bother paying for my fare.

I'm such a bad person.

This is the second time it has happened to me. First time was in 1998. I came from the Bush concert and was on my way home with my officemates. It was around the same time – around 2:30 am. As we were turning left to the village entrance, I heard that metal against metal sound and felt my world turn. I closed my eyes to shield them from broken glass. Apparently the
car we were in spun around three times coz when we stopped; we were facing the other way already and were a few meters away from the entrance. The car was a total wreck… what hit us was a ten-wheeler truck. One of my officemates had to climb out from the window because he couldn't open the door anymore. Luckily, all of us were alive. Two of my officemates however, needed stitches. And one had a gash on his forehead.

I had nothing.

Save for some broken glass all over my clothes and hair, I had no injury. The only damage I got was a broken watch.

Some people may find me lucky. I've been in two major vehicular accidents and in both times; I've been safe – as in 100% safe, having no injury at all. However, I'm feeling quite freaked out.

Don't things come in threes? What if there's a third time? What if on the third time, I don't get to be so lucky? What if…

Oh gawd, I don't even want to think about it.

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I have the worst neck pain. And it's starting to spread towards my back.

Ate Gina told me to have myself checked for possible internal injuries.

Yeah well...