They say you will really know who your true friends are during the lowest point of your life.

I am at one the lowest points in my life, if not the lowest. I cannot remember a worse feeling than what I'm feeling now. It's a combination of fear, agitation, anger, depression and hurt. I honestly didn't think I'd survive the past two days.

Maybe I wouldn't have if not for a couple of people who I know are my REAL FRIENDS.

Thank you to MXRR. Kuya Arnold, you are indeed the best. Even if you were busy with your kids yesterday, celebrating Fathers' Day and all, you still found time to answer my calls. I was ashamed to tell you what the real issue was until such time that I've gotten so depressed. And I don't regret telling you because you made me feel better somehow. Until this morning, I was so worried and was living in fear but that talk we had last night made some of my fear subside. So I thank you very, very much. When you say you care, you mean it. And I really appreciate that. I also appreciate the fact that you never, ever judged me no matter how crazy I can be sometimes. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I'll always be your friend... and I mean it too. =)

To Weng... Despite your humongous problems at home, you still found the time to drive out and pick me up. I debated whether to tell you what I was going through because I knew how bad you must feel too with all your domestic issues and your mom being sick and all. I didn't want to hassle you. I guess I did the right thing by telling you. So thank you very much for being a true friend. We've known each other for 17 years and in those 17 years, you've done nothing but be a really good friend to me. Even when I used to bitch with you about that thing (oh y'know... August 2 incident), you've been very understanding. Thank you. You and Anna are my best friends and I love you dearly. I wish to know you for 17 years more.

To Sam... You not only make my best friend happy but you've proven how great a friend you can be with me. Thank you for driving out too and keeping me company. For listening and giving me that much needed moral support... thanks!

To Nathan... my friend, you are also going through a lot right now and yet you took time out to listen to me first. I appreciate that. You set aside your own personal problems to give me the support I needed. I will never forget that. I wish things work out for you as well. I hope I was able to give you the same support you needed. And if ever you need someone to talk to, just holler. You know where to find me.

To Anna... I haven't told you anything yet and I'm sorry. I didn't want to hassle you. I know you also have a lot to think of right now. But I don't need to tell you anything for me to know how real a friend you are. Being friends for over 13 years is proof enough of that. I love you dude, you know that. And I will surely miss you when you migrate to the US. I wish you didn't have to do that. But I know I can't stop it since your family's there. But I'll miss you terribly.

It's easy to say that you'll be a friend to somebody but it's hard to really be one. Indeed, real friends are those who would stay with you even in grief. Those who aren't just there because everything's chirpy and peachy.

I am now at the lowest point in my life. And I know who my real friends are.