i don't know how i should feel right now...

i really hate having this talent curse of finding things out even when i'm not making any effort at all to snoop around.

i swore to myself that i will not let myself get affected by anything i see, find out or hear. i have told myself countless times that i should stop torturing myself.

like i told a good friend (who's like a li'l bro to me) last night, it really is hard to pretend. i have never been good at pretending. and i am finding it really hard to pretend right now.

when will this ever stop?

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on a much lighter note, i attended the BMG reunion last night courtesy of my former boss Mario. :-) he has resigned from BMG after 15 years of service and he has decided to throw a party for all of us former BMG folks, as well as those still with the company.

the party was held at the Summit Lounge of the Holiday Inn Manila Galleria Suites. it was fun reminiscing old times with all of them. i especially missed trec, who i haven't seen for ages. too bad jojo, sancho and diegz couldn't make it. it wasn't the same without them there. there were also people there i don't even know --- they were with BMG way before i arrived.

the night before the party, Mario and i had this text conversation:

Me: So, who's going tomorrow?
Mario: Madami. People I have worked with for the past 15 years.
Me: Oh okay. May A***n T* ba na kasama jan? [###]
Mario: What if meron? ;-)
Me: *shrug* La Lang. Just wanted to know if may haharapin ba akong multo ng nakaraan. Hehe.
Mario: Well... For some freaky reason, the two of you were the first two people to text back when I sent out the invitation. Soulmates talaga! Haha.
Me: Ngek. I don't think I like the sound of that. Hehe. Anyways, see ya tomorrow!
Mario: Be early ha. Para masaya. =)

so there.

it turned out that A.T. decided at the last minute that he wouldnt go. maybe he found out i was going. it's probably for the best. haha. i kinda couldn't imagine what would have happened if he was there.



with Trec... 5 years ago, she looked like she was 12 years old. Now, she still looks like she's 12! Haha.


another pic with Trec


with Chito and Arlene. Chito is still with BMG while Arlene, like me, is not.


with Chito and Arlene again


with Mario -- the man who trained me and taught me what I know. without him, I wouldn't even be in this business. Cheers to you, mate!


with BMG "honorary employee" Nathan. hehe


with Nathan again


with Klang-Klang a.k.a. Gloida and Grace E


with Klang, Grace E and Francis


one of the casualties of the night. hehe. ;-)

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my ate sent me an MMS of my niece Janaila last night. i was shocked at how she's grown in just a month...


Awwwwww...


[###]A.T. was my ex-boyfriend, who is the nephew of our boss Mr. RYT.