Purpose Driven Life

I just attended a Bible study a few minutes ago. It was just on a whim. I was busy with the Eating Out video screening when I decided to step out of Studio 1 since I was beginning to feel really cold. My hands were literally freezing!

When I went out, I saw my officemates (the Video Content Group) seated in one table engaged in animated conversation. I thought they were talking about something outrageous or really funny so I walked over and joined them. Apparently, they were doing a Bible study. I contemplated for a bit whether I should stay or go but Joji insisted I sit with them so I did.

I never realized that "sharing" and listening to other people's errr... experiences can be quite interesting. The topic was serious and yet it was fun at the same time. Gal even joked that ours was the wackiest Bible study ever since there were lots of jokes and side comments in between (the good kind, mind you). I must admit I enjoyed it. There were no pretentions and none of the people at the table were being self-righteous.

That was the first time I actually spoke and got to know Tenn. She seems alright. I never gave her the chance before and now that I'm leaving, I realized that maybe I was wrong in doing that. She even kidded me about the fact that she just got to know me and I'm already on my way out. Funny and ironic. Haha.

They said they're going to make this a weekly thing. I then found myself telling them to text me and let me know when the next schedule will be. Hmmm.

Anyways, it's weird that I have been with these people for three years or so but I learned more about them and from them in the two hours that we spent talking at the Studio Plaza. Made me realize that I do have a problem discerning people in general.

Things happen for a reason. If I hadn't stepped out of the studio when I did, I wouldn't have met these people. I wouldn't have known that I am quick (and unfair) to judge. I wouldn't have realized that I shut myself out to most people without giving them the chance to get to know me and I them. And no, I wouldn't have known that I am too picky with the people I hang out with and more often than not, I get gravitated towards the people I shouldn't be hanging out with in teh first place.

I don't know if I'm making any sense. Much of the things happening to me lately don't make sense to me at all. But somehow, I feel that a path has been opened before me and it's up to me to decide whether to choose the right or the wrong path. I sure hope I pick the right one this time.


Bumhood, Here I Come

Yes.

I am now a certified bum.

It's a bit scary not knowing where I'll go and what I'll do next. But then again, I feel happier and at peace.

No more stress. No more tension. No more sleepless nights.

I think I deserve to take this break. I have been working non-stop for nine years. As Joji would say, I am now at the crossroads of my life and I should just stop for a while and rethink about what I want and where I want to take myself. Like I've said, I honestly don't know yet. I do have some ideas but I guess I still need to think things through a million times over.

Beginning tomorrow, I will have that luxury. And ooohhh I cannot wait for my life to begin!