Random Stuff

Just checking in to say I am still alive. Have just been really busy.

Anna has left the country for good. Bummer. Weng beat me... the title drama queen now officially belongs to her. Hehe. Although I did not cry at all when Anna left, even though she's been one of my best friends for 13 years, that is not to say that I am not sad about her departure. I am VERY sad. Really really really really sad. However, recent events in my life have made me manhid, so to speak.

I guess I am all cried out.

One thing hasn't changed about me though. I am still one confused 'sonofab****'. I am so confused I've become catatonic. *sigh* I wonder when I will ever find that peace I have been looking for for so long.

Also, I've proven that whatever happens, family will always be family. Once before I thought that I was at the lowest point of my life. But comparing it to what I'm going through now, that was nothing. I look back and I feel like banging my head on every wall I can see. I wasted so much time and effort worrying about something and someone that just wasn't deserving. If I didn't, then maybe I wouldn't be in so much deep shit now. So this is how hitting rock-bottom feels like. Anyways, as I said... I've proven that your family will always be there for you, no matter how dysfunctional it may be.

I am able to go on with my life today because I have my family, most especially my dad. Nothing and no one else really matters to me more than that right now.